My Afterlife Theory...

      For anything to be possible, we must first be able to imagine it, right?  So it makes sense that if we couldn't imagine something, that would make whatever it is that we couldn't imagine impossible to attain, right?  In my "Opposite Words Theory" I explained how the subconscious part of our mind can be influenced without us really being aware of this influence.  In this one, I will explain how our subconscious influences our conscious thoughts without us even really being aware of it.  The slightest changes in perspective can make all the difference in the world.  This is my "Afterlife Theory".
    I believe that we are all holograms of "God".  Just about every religion suggests that we came from God and that there is a piece of God within us.  They use different stories, but the outcome is the same; we find likenesses between ourselves and God.  There is so much controversy over likenesses and in exactly in what ways that we are similar to whatever God one believes in, that our species has become accustomed to looking for differences rather than similarities.  Now, to understand anything better it is the most accurate if we can find the starting point: The foundation.  The starting point, or foundation, of a human being is our "consciousness".  If I could define "God" in one word, it would be consciousness.  Do not mistake this with "conscience", as the words are similar, but provoke very different concepts.  I translate "consciousness" to "awareness".  We are aware beings.  We are aware that we exist.  This is the starting point.  We know this to be the starting point because we can't go any farther down the "rabbit hole".  Let me elaborate:  You can't imagine yourself NOT existing, right?  Think about it!  We are aware that we exist and since we have had that awareness since our first breathes, it is impossible for us to even imagine NOT being aware.  The closest we can come to fathoming not being aware is from looking at it from a 3rd party perspective, or as a "fly on the wall".  But in essence, all you're really doing if you do that is imagining yourself not existing through someone else's existence, so that counterfeits the 3rd party perspective and brings us back to the starting point: We are aware that we exist.
    Our own awareness of our existence and our subconscious inability to imagine ourselves NOT existing has caused us to look further beyond the void.  In doing so, we have conjured up the concept of an "afterlife".  Heaven, hell, purgatory, reincarnation.  All of these different forms of afterlife are, in a sense, nothing more than our soul's inability to not exist persevering through our logical brains, and so we have created a stoy that makes sense to us and puts us at ease because we have found a solution to our problem, or and end/destination to our journey.  But in essense, all we are really saying is "I want to live forever".  This society we live in has trained our brains to think in a linear way and have created in us, a habit of fearing what we don't know or can't understand.  We have become so left brain dominant (logical) that we cling to answers, names, and labels like our lives depend on it.  When we are conditioned at a young age to choose one of these stories to believe in.  We are actually unknowingly chosing a concept to believe.  The reason there are so many different takes on God, afterlife, and spirituality is due to the infinite amounts of personalities that exist in this world that see things in a different way.  But they all share similar attributes and parables.  In "My Opposite Words Theory" I said that I believed that our brains have been conditioned to look for differences more than similarities without us being aware of it.  And it sure seems like the people in this world are showing symptoms of that, right?  When we are influenced at such a young age to choose one of these concepts to believe in, what we are unknowingly doing is believing 2 of mankind's greatest questions: "Where did we come from?" and "What is this life for?"  When one finds a logical way to understand the unknown, it allows them to relax.  We fear what we do not understand.  And when we understand something we think that we can master it or beat it.
    Atheism is a result of this mentality.  With the evolution religions and the changes of ages, it makes sense why so many people label themselves as atheists.  When children are born into a "rational" and "reasonable" society built on facts and truths, along with all the confusing religions and their different takes on "God", doesn't it make sense that many people are choosing to believe in fact based knowledge rather than an irrational religion?  Atheism is just product of the change in times.  It's not a bad thing.  In fact, I believe it is a huge step forward for our race because atheists are not out killing each other over religion, like our species has been doing for hundreds of years!  Christianity, with its intolerance for others' "Gods" have created the most conflict among our race, and it's dishonoring the very spirit it claims to honor.  So many justify, disguise, minimize or confuse their "helping" and call it "judging", and it is maddening.  I am not saying that all christians are this way.  But the christian religions tend to have a group mentality that is considered to be "black and white" thinking, or concrete thinking.  They have a very concrete idea of what right and wrong is.  But we do not live in a 2-D universe.  Things aren't always as simple as "this way" or "that way".  And in my experience, most atheists believe in God, they just call it "universe".  Instead of believing in God and the 10 commandments, they choose to believe in the laws and powers of the universe, and choose to embrace the unknown.  Steve Jobs said: "Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important."  I think that it is easier for today's generation to believe in atheism because it does not confine them into a box, like religions try to do.  Instead it allows it's believer to construct their own beliefs, and live free of pre-concieved beliefs. 
    Beliefs are the #1 driving factor behind all human behavior.  We need to work together to open each others eyes to understanding that our societal problems are a global issue and we are just experiencing the trickle down effect in our local communities.  To quote J. Krishnamurti: "We have to alter the structure of our society, it's injustice, it's appalling morality, the divisions it has created between man and man, the wars, the utter lack of affection and love that is destroying the world."  We must relinquish of others while also being tolerant of others religions, beliefs, and views.  Perception is reality, right?  So, understanding that simple concept should also bring tolerance for others beliefs.  When you get down to it: A belief is nothing more than a romanticized opinion, right?  And you know what they say about opinions, right? Always remember this; people believe things for 1 of 2 reasons: #1: Because they WANT to  #2: Because they FEAR that it might be true.  It will always be 1 of those 2 reasons.  We must visualize the world through others' eyes in order to try to gain perspective, so that we can understand their realities.  After all, we are what we do, right?
    In conclusion, I choose NOT to believe in an "afterlife", I believe rather, that our souls live forever. I believe in multi-verses and the resiliency of the human spirit.  When we die in this universe, we are born into another with the cognitive (logic) slate being wiped clean, but I also believe that our soul remembers everything that impacts us emotionally, and that we carry karma with us into our next lives.  I cannot explain my unbridled anger and rage as a child, and I have dissected myself. To this day, I have always felt like an old soul.  Like I have lived a million lives before  Besides, do you really think one could possibly learn all of life's lessons in one lifetime?  In order for us to ascend spiritually, we must become more aware of the connection between our mind, body, and souls and learn to try to trust our feelings rather than our thinking.  I believe that we ascend spiritually, and witheach universe we enter, each life that we live, we evolve forward (or up) ,depending on your perspective.  If infinity is a circle, then we are failing forward.  When I live outside of the restraints and expectations of society and compete against myself, the sky is the limit in what I can achieve, but it all starts with the "God" in me.  When one attempts to understand the universe, he will understand nothing. When one understands himself, he will understand the entire universe.  All awareness begins with SELF-awareness.

Ryan Mita
"Little King of 3 Rice Patties"
"Little King of Mind, Body, & Soul"
"Prince of Life"

My Meaning of Life Thesis

           Science has proven that our Milky Way Galaxy has a vacuum/wormhole in the middle of it that create the rotation of our galaxy, and in turn, the rotation of our planets. Science has also proven that we age differently depending on what part of the world we live in....for example; In Colorado you age slower because you live at a higher elevation. The easiest way to explain "time" is it's like an invisible blanket being sucked into this wormhole and our Milky Way Galaxy happens to inhabit the immediate area around this wormhole. Therefore, Earth just sits in this invisible blanket and creates an environment where life can be inhabited. Much how like how saliva creates an environment in our mouths that fights bacteria so our teeth and gums don't catch infectious diseases and rot our teeth and gums out. If our bodies didn't produce saliva, our mouths would be more susceptible to bacteria and disease. Also, this means that outside of our galaxy time may not exist, or at least not in the same way that we experience it. Time is a tool of measurement. If I am talking to you you would be waiting for me to finish speaking so that you could start. There is space between you and I. Distance to measure. If we didn't have it, we could not even communicate because we would be talking altogether at the same time. It is something tangible that gives us the ability to live and exist on earth and be able to communicate with each other.

        The "Time/Space Continuum" suggests that everything is happening all the time at once. If you take "time" as we understand it out of the equation; that means all of earth's past/present/future happens in a nano second. And if time goes forever and there is no beginning or end to it, and it just goes on infinitely.  This would mean there IS no beginning of time and if there was, we humans couldn't even fathom that meaning, as it is outside our realm of understanding.  Now if space also goes on forever, and it's that big, that means that it could only be so small somewhere else, like it's not even happening at all. Think about it! How can any space go on forever?  If any space goes forever, there could not be any other space anywhere else, right?  Now, if time also goes forever it also never happens, as time would not be a tool of measurement, right? If both space and time have no beginning or end to them, how could either be measurable? They couldn't be. Like I said, our brains can't even grasp that concept fully because we have known time as a tool of measurement. The word infinity is grossly misunderstood. 

       Now, if time really is happening all the time at once that would mean our past/present/future of our realities is actually happening all the time at once. Which means that we humans HAVE to be living in infinite parallel universes. Which means that each fork in the road that we face in life will VASTLY affect what parallel universe we step into next, because if these parallel universes are truly infinite, there would have to be an outcome/future for every single decision we could possibly make. Now, if you take the concepts that time is infinite/parallel universes are infinite, that means we live in God's imagination. Think! What other space do we know of that is infinite? What other way could infinite parallel universes and time exist? Imagination!    We can all relate to this as we know our imaginations have infinite possibilities. If he made us in his likeness does it not make sense that this is true? The beauty is that he gave us free will. But "free will' is not entirely what it seems as there is another variable...karma.

      Karma is like Newton's Cradle with the steel balls that swings and hits the other balls and makes the opposite end ball swing out. Sir Isaac Newton said: "For every action there is an opposite or equal reaction, unless acted on by an outside force." Karma is "cause and affect" or "actions and consequences". It is so much deeper than "good karma" and "bad karma". 

      Every single living organism has free will and when we decide to take karma into our own hands and obey our selfish desires instead of letting the forces that be handle it, we create karma for not only ourselves, but many times, another in another parallel universe. "Life" is in everything. Energy IS life. Energy exists in everything that exists, and it is contagious, but we rarely think of energy as spiritual. When we make a choice with the intention to be negative or selfish, it creates bad karma.  We people need to always keep our spirit of intent in mind when making decisions with our lives. If we tell on someone because we want to be vindictive, or get ourselves out of trouble for a choice that we made the spirit of intent is negative and selfish and creates bad karma.

          Rastafarians call it "One Love". Christianity used the story of Christ' sacrifice to explain everyone being connected, as through Christ' sacrifice, we all have Christ within us.  Taoism uses the Ying-Yang sign to symbolize "oneness". Albert Einstein intuited it. He said: "A human being is part of the whole called by us 'universe', a part limited in TIME and SPACE. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest-a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty". We are ALL part of this universe. We have been thinking that we are separate since we experience our realities separately from one another, but when we are positive, we spread that energy into one another, and the more people it touches, the more positively charged we all become. We basically infect each other with this positive energy. Everyone is connected within our inner eye, but we have been conditioned to ignore this 6th sense and trust first our 'thinking', but we are feeling beings that think, NOT thinking beings that feel. So this thinking is WRONG.

         God meant for us to trust in him and trust in our fellow man, but because we decided to guard our precious feelings so that we could be selfish and not experience pain or negative feelings we set multiple pengalums in motion that threw off the balance of our universe by trusting in what WE know. When you get down to it...EVERYTHING in this world is based on a man-made concept...EVERYTHING. Our brains, more and specifically, our "thinking process" was meant to be a tool to help us make BETTER decisions in the future, not to avoid negative feelings altogether. We were never supposed to make things about us. We were ALWAYS supposed to live outside of ourselves and if we would have done this, we never would have thrown off the harmony to begin with. 

      God gave us the gift of rationalizing and knowing things of our own, but we were always supposed to be good to our brothers and sisters, but we can see by today's world that we are not. We were supposed to evolve more psychically into sentient beings.  Beings aware of everything at once. When we strive to live outside of ourselves, we encourage others to do the same with our infectious positive energy. In order for us to reach this "utopian society" we have to let go of our old ways of thinking, as they are the chains that bind us. We must relinquish expectations of others and perform acts of kindness WITHOUT expectations. This is very difficult as feelings are something that we've protected fiercely in our lives, and let's face it, they are going to get hurt. Betrayals are bound to happen, but we must never give up on each other by giving into our own fears and selfish desires. Only through everyone working together and having faith in one another, will we ever be able to be truly happy as a race.

       Unfortunately, not everyone is going to reach this level of awareness in this lifetime and we DO teach people how to treat us, so one must trust their inner eye as our gut and intuition can help us weed out people that can be "awakened" with the ones that won't, and will mistake our kindness for weakness, and abuse us. Our jobs, though it will be difficult and painful is to change societal thinking and lay the groundwork for a better future for our people. 

         We just left the house of Pisces and  into the house of Aquarius. We will remain in this house for 2000+ years and if we want to live in the kingdom of heaven so that God's new souls can be born into a better world, we must all do our jobs and work together as a team. Our creator gave us egos so that we could have the joy of having our own identity. NOT to base ego and reputations on that have created the societal hiearchy we see as obviously broken today. God doesn't see any one job as more important than another. We have a very demented idea of what "ego" is. We exist in great opposites that make up a whole. Night/day, winter/summer, spring/fall, and prophecy/freewill.  We are all part of an intricate plan and everybody plays a role. 

      The house of Aquarius has not been in this rotation of the galaxy for nearly 26,000 years. This house represents: brotherhood, loyalty, respect, and unity. Where do you find all those characteristics? Right here in institutions. The meek shall inherit the Earth. It all begins right here in institutions. What goes up must come down, and what goes around comes around.  Everything is a circle. EVERYTHING, in this; God's imagination.

-Ryan Mita

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        This is my "Opposite Words" Theory...When you think about it...we would have to KNOW or label anything, something to understand anything at all, right?  Humans understand and fashion their brains the most logical and obvious way...through how we interpret and understand the laws in our universe.  the brain is a mix between a sponge and a supercomputer, in one word..."logic".  The flip side to that 2-D coin is emotion. The human soul is, our "heart", and our heart is emotion.  When you mix those things together, you get a human being.  With our logic (brain) comes the thinking process and the ability to use our "reasoning" and problem solving skills to predict or imagine the best decision; for the best outcome, to the given stimuli in our lives.  There are a few things that you must agree with to understand this concept: First, you must understanding how susceptible and vulnerable our brains are to attack and influence.This is the foundation of understanding this theory.
       When I say the brain is like a sponge, it is an under-exaggeration.  The human brain is constantly interpreting, deciding, and responding to all of the stimulus in our lives, consciously, as well as subconsciously.  Our brains are the most advanced supercomputers in the universe.  Let me give you an example: WHITE, WHITE, WHITE, WHITE, WHITE...What do cows drink???....................  Did you think "milk"?  Chances are, regardless of your answer and no matter how many times that you have heard that, you can distunguish that the thought went through your head.  Now if our thoughts occur subconsciously (which they do), then our sub-conscious thoughts can be influenced also, and this riddle is an example of that.  It shows us how our brains have been conditioned by norms and how something as simple as associating a color with another's commonly known knowledge, to an animal can almost instantaneously give our brains a generic answer to the question presented to it. Almost INSTANTANEOUSLY, this happens!!!  Our brains are the greatest weapon in our arsenal, as a species, but can also be our greatest adversary, and like any weapon, if our enemy understood how it worked, our enemy would gain an advantage over us. 
      People think of "communication" is ALWAYS acted out in a physical form.  Meaning, that in order for one to communicate with another, they would need to physically talk, text, e mail, etc. in order to communicate with that person.  This theory suggests that we have also been communicating subconsciously and it has affected our ability to communicate.  Let me elaborate.
      Before mathematics, before science, before any of that, there was the written and verbal word.  Language and communication are the FOUNDATION of ALL of our understanding.  In grade school we learn letters and the sounds they make, we arrange them together to form words and we learn the sounds that they make, we combine those words to form sentences and learn how to communicate, we learn verbs, nouns, pre-fixes, root words, etc. and how to associate these words with our senses: sight, sound, smell, taste, and FEEL.
      The Spanish language provides a perfect example of how we would first start to associate a word with our senses (This is CRITICAL to understand as part of the foundation of EVERYTHING we know).  At first, when learning how to speak this language, we have to consciously be aware of what sex we are talking to. You have to consciously focus on relating feminine and masculine words (ending in "a" or "o") to the sex of who we are talking to.  Eventually, this association between the sexes and sound, becomes 2nd nature and becomes part of our sub-conscious.  In other words, our brains create a shortcut to the program.  Try to use this as an example for this next topic...
    Eventually we are introduced to the concept of "opposite" words.  What does the word "opposite" mean to you?...............................Define the word "opposite".  The word "opposite" is commonly defined as different or something that is different than, but that is not always true with these words.  In fact, more often than not, those 2 "opposite" words can be another type of synonym.  The word "synonym" by definition is: 2 words that mean the same thing, or 2 words that share similars. But there are different synonyms that are found from "opposite" words.  Examples: white/black=color spectrum, male/female=sexes, love/hate=affection.  I have found that many of these opposite word pairs also have a one word similar.  If this does not seem PROFOUNDLY significant let me explain further.  Understanding opposite words train our brains to identify differences and synonyms train our brains to look for similarities in things.  One conditions separation, and one promotes looking for likenesses.  Think about it!  We were taught this concept at such a young age that it is ingrained in the foundation of our psyches.  If you agree that our brains have created "shortcuts" to make us more efficient and that sometimes we can overlook things without even realizing it sub-consciously, then you can see that we have literally been speaking different languages as a species to each other!!! 
        The fact that SO many people have come to understand the simple concept of opposite words as "different"  completely nullifies its concept.  This is why: If we have defined, to ourselves, that the word "opposite" means different and "different" means not the same, and that association with the word blended with our crude understanding of what "opposite" means, could actually mean the complete OPPOSITE of what it's supposed to mean, then how the hell can we rationalize NOT nullifying it's concept???  I'm not saying that we don't need to look for differences, because we do, and opposite words are the concept/comparison that gives us the ability to look for differences.  Actually, our very survival depends on finding differences.  We need the ability to look for differences so that we can draw a comparison off of to change anything or do anything differently.  We need a comparison, because without a comparison to draw off of, there would never be any progress in the human race.
        We ALL, as the species that has the ultimate authority, on our planet, need to become aware of this "hiccup" or "flaw" in our mental make-up and seek to understand or relate to one another more, in order to consciously correct this "hiccup".  This will, in turn, train our minds to look for similarities rather than differences, and thus evening out the lop-sidedness in our sub-conscious. I believe we have been subconsciously looking for differences and this has trained our minds to separate ourselves, mentally, and too emotionally, and so spiritually, because of these "opposite" words. We need to acknowledge where our technological minds want us to go, and that is to be more aware of the evolution of words and language and to learn how to communicate better. 
       Another way to look at it is this: maybe, our creations that you see in today's technological world , are actually manifistations of memories from past incarnations that our souls have had, and through those memories, we have created the ability to be telepathic, (to some extent) and accomplished this through technology.  Maybe we are subconsciously creating these gadgets in an attempt to recover the abilities that we once had as "sentient" beings: Beings aware of everything at once.  Perhaps all we are doing is living out a lost "sense" that we once had built into our make-up....

-Ryan Mita

What is a human being??? PART 1

        We humans are an oddity.  To try to understand what a human being is, you must first understand this:  When you breakdown anything you eventually get to 2 things that came from one.  Humans are made of 2 things internally: logic and emotion...but there is no logic in emotion and no emotion in logic.  They are 2 things that cannot be, but are.  Also, we have to KNOW something in order to be "thinking beings", though.  If we didn't have the ability to make up our minds and KNOW certain facts or truths then we would just be confused all the time.  We'd have thoughts go through our heads and our feelings would also influence us and if we couldn't make up our mind or even decide to KNOW anything then we wouldn't be able to make a decision, and thus we wouldn't be "thinking beings".  I believe that all beings on earth are actually "thinking beings", but the size of our brain compared to our bodies is much larger than other animals on Earth, so our thinking ability is higher than other animals.  Also, our brains burn about 25% of the calories that we put into our bodies, and that is a significant amount of calories for any animal to dedicate to "brain power".  It also makes sense that because of our bigger brains we have a more advanced thinking process than other species.  For these reasons I believe that our ability to process more variables more efficiently, about a situation is greater than other animals.
    Our thinking process is influenced by beliefs that have been formed from past experiences and consequences in past situations.  And beliefs are formed by our feelings and logic in a situation.  We must first experience some sort of feeling and know/believe something in order to gain wisdom on how to handle a similar one in the future.  If you walk outside barefoot and stepped on a nail, your feeling of pain will prompt a thought to wear shoes outside so that you don't experience that pain again.  "I should wear shoes outside." may then become a belief because of your learned experience.  Our personalities are a mixture of feelings, logic, and beliefs.  As we mature our beliefs will change and evolve, as wisdom is gained through actions and consequences over time.   
    Human evolution is very real.  Anyone who denies that fact has got to be living in a box.  There is no way that people can't notice the evolution in the past 10 years, in which we communicate.  We have basically made ourselves telepathic.  In today's society, we have come to rely on labels and names to call our problems which society has already deemed as an "illness" or "disorder".  So many parents mistakenly jump on the ADD/ADHD bandwagon, but I think parents are experiencing their children thinking faster and therefore, losing track of thoughts, getting frustrated by miscommunicating, stumbling over their words, and the frustration or WANT to understand, because the thoughts are going too fast in their heads to NOT get mixed up or confused on.  What if these kids are just more evolved to interpret the "Information Age" more efficiently?  Why does everyone seem so concrete on evolution just being a physical thing?
    When we are children we feel an emotion and instinctively understand that in order for us to balance out negative feelings we must replace it with a positive.  So we go from one extreme to the other and through each consequence with similar experiences we grow into a balance that is us by finding a softer extreme than before, and this will continue to happen over and over again until we die.  This circle of life that is the very fabric of us will continue for all the years that we are alive until our death.  It is a constant circle of interpreting, deciding, and responding to the stimulations in our lives.  We learn that although we have similar experiences, through our life, none are all the same and each circumstance has its own set of unique variables which we must consider when making a decision on how to respond to a situation.  This realization also brings an understanding that we simply have no right or ground to judge or assume anything about others' actions or decisions in a situation, as we can see that by looking at ours.
    As soon as we humans decided to KNOW anything of our own, is when the incredible oddity that makes us human beings came into existence.  We are at the "top of the food chain" in the animal kingdom and also on planet Earth.  Where the rest of the beings in this universe have natural predators to think about, we don't, so we become each other's predator and prey.  What sets us apart from other animals on Earth, at the very core of it, is our morals.  An animal at the top of the food chain, with no predators almost has to have a concept of "Good and Evil" built into it cause the whole rest of the planet would depend on it.  With great power comes great responsibility, right?  Well, I agree, but I also don't think that our creator would put that awesome responsibility in our hands.  If he created everything, he should know that this race is too stupid and selfish to be trusted with the keys to the universe. A wise man would agree, God isn't that stupid.  We are so intolerable and insensitive to others' circumstances and backgrounds that we separate ourselves from people we see as "different" when we are really just like any other organism and we are supposed to work together to co-exist on Earth. 

A profound dream I had right after my epiphany....it will mean something in the future.

        I found myself in some sort of institution where I was preaching my "concepts" to a couple others inside of a cell.  There was an air of urgency in the air, like we were on some kind of a time restraint, as I can remember.  As I was talking, someone came to the door and startled us.  When my attention came to the door, I realized that I was being ushered out into the hallway.  As we started running down the corridor my friends started being attacked by others like us that seemed to be possessed with demons.  Loc was with me and even he started humming X-mas jingles and aroused feelings of selfish desires and my wants.  Like "WHITE, WHITE, WHITE...What do cows drink?" and you think "milk", he was planting seeds in my head, via subliminal messaging just by talking.  Others brought my mind back to reality by reminding me of the things that I have recently found to be important in life: Love, respect, loyalty, unity, and integrity.  I can't remember exactly how, but we somehow overcame the possessed people and they returned to their normal human selves. 
         The next day we were sitting around eating and war storying about the epic battle the day before, and how it all started with one girl who showed to have supernatural abilities as she attacked us earlier in the day before we had arrived at the institution.  When I started reminscing in depth some of the battle, I suddenly sensed that people were getting uneasy, like I was somehow making everyone remember too much, and just like Loc had subliminally planted those evil seeds in my head, I was somehow planting painful memories of uncertainty in their heads.  I was reminding them of a horror they all wanted to forget.  As I realized what was happening, I got the feeling that I was not safe, like I would be killed by one of my friends, cause although they loved me, me digging up old painful memories was too great for them to bear and so they decided to kill me as my prophecy had been fulfilled.  But before I was attacked I spoke and said, "It's not over.  I cannot go yet.  To kill me would be a grave mistake." and by the look on everyone's face, they wanted to believe me, but also didn't want the pain and I honestly didn't know what was going to happen, and then I woke up.

      I think I get deja vu of this happening before...but not supernaturally.

A COLLECTION OF SOME OF MY POEMS....PART OF ME WILL ALWAYS BELIEVE THERE IS A WAY I CAN FIND THE PERFECT WORDS TO EXPRESS IN WORDS THEPAIN I'VE FELT...

Untitled 4: Dad
Look at you smiling, perfect in every way,
You always know just what to do, the right thing to say,
Seeing you just reminds me,
Of what I am and what I will never be.

-Ryan Mita (age: 15)

"Goodbye" 4: Nelia
Goodbye my love, I know I must go and do my time,
I must be strong and carry on because I did the crime,
I know you're mad, I know you're hurt, I'm sorry for what I've done,
Remember the smiles, remember the laughs, remember the times of fun,
I'm going away, but rest assured I will be back someday,
Reunited with you, my love again, and this is what I pray,
But for now, I know I must, learn to let you go,
You have so much life to live, so much love to give, this much is what I know,
What we had was real, as pure as gold, what we had was true,
But asking you to do my time with me is something I cannot expect of you,
I've made mistakes, but to lose years, it just seems so unfair,
But I did the crime, I'll do the time, this is my cross to bear,
I'm told that I'll move on, and find someone, and that time heals all wounds,
But I'm afraid to be alone, I fear my life is doomed,
Believe me when I say "I will become a better man",
But you may fall in love again, this much I understand,
And if by chance, in the time I'm gone, you fall for someone new,
At least I'll know, in my heart, that what we had was true,
It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all,
But I hope you still care enough to answer when I call,
I hope that one day you will return back to my side,
But I'm afraid I've lost you forever, I'm afraid you'll run and hide,
I only pray that your love for me does not fade into the past,
And if you're there when I get out, this time I'll make it last,
Tonight I lay my head down, and tonight we are apart,
But I know no matter what happens, I'll always be in your heart,
So goodbye my love, today I must go and do my time,
I just pray that someday your heart will once again be mine.

-Ryan Mita 5/22/08

"Tomorrow"  4: Nelia
Tomorrow is full of uncertainty and sorrow in it's path,
Life alone, without you here must be God's great wrath,
Tomorrow is another day, to realize that I'm alone,
Another day to realize that you might not come home,
Tomorrow I will wonder who's with you when you when you sleep,
It's enough to make me go insane, it's enough to make me weep,
Tomorrow and everyday afterwards I must come to accept,
That you're no longer mine to hold, you're not mine to protect,
Tomorrow I will resent you and hate you for what you've done,
Cause you said you'd marry me, you said you'd bear my son,
Tomorrow I will dream of us and all the times we shared,
And wake up and turn my head to see that you're not there,
Tomorrow you may go out and fall for some new man,
I'm trying so hard to let you go, I'm doing the best I can,
But I'm heartbroken cause I'm afraid your love for me is no more,
I fear You've given up, I fear you've closed that door,
Tomorrow I can only hope to get a letter from your soul,
That says something to heal this pain, something to close this hole,
Tomorrow this wish may never come, I fear that this is true,
Have I really lost you Nelia?  Have I really lost you too,
Tomorrow I will learn to accept the cards that I was dealt,
Cause I know what we had was real, I know what I FELT,
Tomorrow I will wake with a 2nd wind, a chance to build a new,
A chance to love, live, and forgive, like the love I had with you.

-Ryan Mita  5/23/08


"When Your First Love Falls" 4: Nelia
When your first love falls your whole life changes,
You're dropped into a new unfamiliar world all alone,
When your first love falls you question God,
You hate him for taking it all away,
When your first love falls you can't accept that it's through,
You think "We've done this before", but this time it's different and you know it,
When your first love falls you realize all the things you did wrong and regret the past,
You beg and plead to rewind time so you can change the hurt you've caused them, but you can't,
When your first love falls, you just expect it to be different,
You figure that you wouldn't still be in love with the person,
When your first love falls you wonder if they feel what you feel,
Cause maybe if they do there's a way to save what's left,
When your first love falls you blame them for letting you go,
How could forever end so soon?
When your first love falls you see the things you took for granted,
You start to appreciate all those little things that you are going to miss about them,
When your first love falls you wonder who will take your place,
Just picturing them with someone else shatters your already broken heart,
When your first love falls you don't think you can go on,
What's the point of life when you lived only for them?
When your first love falls you reluctantly submit to reality,
They're gone and moving on with their life, and you are no longer in it,
When your first love falls your spirit dies inside of you,
You're in denial but you know what you never thought would happen is happening and your soul just collapses,
When your first love fell did you feel all of this too?
And if so, I ask you "HOW DO I GET THROUGH??!!!"

-Ryan Mita 6/10/08

"My Peace Of Mind" 4: Nelia
I gave you my heart and gave you my soul,
I trusted in you that your love was whole,
I committed my life and committed my mind,
I trusted that you wouldn't leave me behind,
I loved you for you, despite all your flaws,
But I didn't know you could break all love's laws,
I gave you the ring and you said that you would,
And you hurt me in the worst ways that you could,
I dedicated my body to noone but you,
I expected the same but you were untrue,
I believed in your love when no one else did,
Then I was made to look like a kid,
I believed when you told me you loved me too,
But now I wonder how many guys did you screw?
You betrayed my heart and betrayed my trust,
How could you help them find where I was?
I lived for you and you alone,
But now I see that your heart is a stone,
I loved you through all of the lows and all of the highs,
Now my life is ruined because of your lies,
I was blinded by love but now I can see,
You could not be in love and do that to me,
One day you'll see and regret what you've done,
But I won't come back to bear you a son,
I was a fool for loving something like you,
You have no idea of the pain I've been through,
But I know in my heart that someday YOU'LL find,
Someone else who is bred of your kind!

-Ryan Mita 6/23/08



"The Girl I Met The Other Day" 4: Cassie
I met this girl the other day,
A girl who took my breath away,
And through her eyes I saw her soul,
It's beautiful, but is not whole,
And in my mind I tried to find,
A way for her to see her "shine",
To open her eyes to what I saw,
And somehow get her heart to thaw,
She hides behind the masks of a clown,
Anything just to hide that frown,
She hates herself but does not know why,
She's in so much pain it makes me cry,
For if she could only see what I see,
She could finally let go and be free,
We could live a life of happiness and love,
A life that's blessed from God above,
But in my disdain I wake to see,
She must first love herself before she can me,
I have given and given and bared my soul,
But her self hatred has taken its toll
I met this girl the other day,
A girl who took my breath away...forever.

-Ryan Mita 2/14/13

"A Friend"
I'm surrounded by people but I'm still alone,
Everyone else's hearts are like stone,
We all use one another for our own selfish gain,
But noone is there when one is in pain,
Is there such a thing as a friend, a brother, a pal?
Or even one that exists in a gal?
Someone I don't have to count money with,
Someone who's presence is a love and a gift,
I have yet to find a friend like that,
A friend that won't stab me in the back,
But still I will continue to search and explore,
For anyone else who is searching for more...

-Ryan Mita (age: 15)

"A Brother" 4:Kyle
This morning I woke with the strength of a new man,
There's noone else that can do what we can,
I found my brother beyond my blood,
It was not in vain, this trudge through the mud,
You share my spirit and I share your heart,
Never again will you be left in the dark,
And if there be pain just know I'll be there,
Just know in your heart that someone does care,
You were my friend when I was alone,
You believed in me when my heart was a stone,
Believe in yourself and do not be afraid,
And remember life is the choices we made,
Believe in yourself, believe in your heart,
And NEVER AGAIN WILL YOU BE LEFT IN THE DARK,
Because of you I will cease to search and explore,
But welcome anyone who is searching for more...

-Ryan Mita 5/11/14

"Revelations"
My mind it burns up energy as fast as light-speed,
Soaking up all knowledge some would call it greed,
Intrigued by truth and wisdom by learning who people are,
Only to find out that we're all unique stars,
How much I wish to learn every snowflake that you made,
But if it is to be it is my life that I must trade,
The beauty of this art is almost too intense to take,
It sends quivers through my soul just like an earthquake,
To sacrifice everything I am, but somehow still remain myself,
Is the meaning of life and the definition of real wealth.

-Ryan Mita 5/13/14

"The Beautiful Ironies" 4: Deputy Graham
You fill my life at every turn with wonderment and pain,
But it's all perception I see now, as I see sunshine through the rain,
These tears that flowed forever now a desert from the drought,
Now it's only love since I found out what life's about,
So take your best shot cause my spirit won't miss a stride,
But part of me knows the power you hold and wants to run and hide,
I've overcome adversity there was no life as hard as mine,
So I hope the taste of irony ages just like wine,
And for all the good-hearted souls that get hurt along the way,
My heart will weep forever for the sacrifice you made.

-Ryan Mita 5/12/14


"Why Must You Deny Me" 4: My Parents
Since I was a child you guided me with care,
Never discriminating, you always did things fair,
But when I seeked identity and tried to become my own,
You shut me out your hearts and in turn, mine became a stone,
You cared for me through 3rd parties, you thought that they knew best,
They became my parents when you pushed me out the nest,
So I return to institutions cause it's the only thing I know,
Since the age of 12, they're the ones that have made me grow,
How easily we forget how you've ruled with an iron fist,
How easily we forget about the boy you used to kiss,
And now that I've finally found myself and want to love you so,
You've shut me out completely and God's telling me I must go,
These tears fill up my almond eyes and fall slowly down my cheek,
Inside I'm still a little boy, deep down I'm still so weak,
But I sigh with sorrow I know I must carry on,
And I know inside my heart that you'll love me when I'm gone,
And as I travel through this journey we call life,
I'll see your faces in my head and wonder....why must you deny me?

-Ryan Mita 5/15/14

"Why Is Justice Blind?" 4: The Idaho Justice System

Excuse me, but why is the lady Justice blind?

She wears a blindfold to work, I don't think she's of sound mind,

All she does is gossip and spread rumors with her friends,

Somewhere in her past a man must have failed to make amends,

She holds scales but can't see that the balance is off,

When I told her I was innocent all she did was scoff,

Her best friend is lady Liberty, but Liberty needs glasses,

Her interests are no longer for the poor, no longer for the masses,

They say there is no fury like a woman scorn, but these girls take the cake,

Cause liberty's no longer free and the justice system's fake,

Now I'm not saying men are perfect and ladies you know I ain't,

But some of ya'll are bitches cause I damn sure ain't no saint!

Ryan Mita 5/11/14

"Before I Leave This Earth" 4: The Convicts

Please God grant me this wish before I leave this Earth,

That each of my fellow man knows the beauty of their worth,

We're bound by chains and shackles, the weight holds down our souls,

The pain becomes so much to bear that we opt to forget our goals,

We're taught that our hearts must be as calloused as a stone,

That we choose to venture through this life afraid, cold, and alone,

But our hearts are so very fragile that they wear transparent skin,

That is bound to blow away with just the whisper of a wind,

But they can learn to fly again, these birds with broken wings,

They deserve tranquility, they deserve the throne of kings,

So please God grant me this wish before I leave this Earth,

That each of my fellow man knows the beauty of their worth...

Ryan Mita 5/11/14

"Soul Mates" 4:My Soulmate

I know your heart beats out there, under the stars above,

A reflection of my soul, a reflection of true love,

These opposing energies, your heart and mine,

When combined together, produces the most brilliant shine,

This Yin and Yang between our souls is unique in its design,

And will only fit together with the other of its kind,

To know that you exist out there somewhere under the blanket of our sky,

Has my heart frustrated and my mind asking God "Why?"

When I'm separated from my other half, then how can I be whole?

How can I accomplish this great task, without the other half to my soul,

Will I know you when I see you? Would your heart notice mine?

Could our love blossom like a lotus flower before the ending of my time?

All these questions remain unknown, but I choose to believe, 

But I must ask these questions before the belief can be conceived.

Ryan Mita 9/24/14


"Take Me Away"

Please take me away from this life full of pain,
Cause living shouldn't just be existing in shame,
Birthed in a fire and forged out of steel,
Ironic, my downfall is how deeply I feel,
Cold as ice, yet soft as snow,
A battered heart that noone knows,
What I yearn for is what I seek,
And what I search for is what I keep,
Please take me away, deliver me from this place,
Because I can't bear to see the pain on their face,
Please take me away to a place to call home,
To a place where I'll never again be alone,
Take me away...

Ryan Mita 8/29/15


"Untitled"  4: My Creator

I know my purpose now, but still, I am confused,
You must have a sick sense of humor because I know you are amused,
The beauty in this suffering, how it takes my breath away,
I only wish to remain here with you forever and a day,
Outcasted by society because I didn't fit the mold,
Betrayed by those that loved me, because I chose a different road,
Am I good? Am I evil? I am both. I am me,
The moment I embraced this, is when I truly broke free,
Amidst all of the sorrow this young life has known,
I know now, that I was never alone,
The memory of your presence ever since that fateful day,
A love and understanding, that words somehow fail to say,
It can't be known by the mind, mearly glimpsed but not seen,
An intuitive connection, rather, an internal "knowing",
This unity of opposites, the very canvas of our life,
How can one know peace in the absence of great strife?
They say read between the lines to constrict you to their space,
So, I think outside the box for ways to innovate this race,
There is peace within the chaos, like the eye inside a storm,
every single soul has a purpose, even before the day we're born!

-Ryan Mita 9/10/15


"Dyslexic Love" (E-V-O-L)    4: Megan

From the moment I let you know me, I knew there was pain not far ahead,
But I tried to convince myself that it wouldn't hurt, as long as I wasn't misled,
See my heart yearns for experience, while my mind seeks only peace,
And I took a leap of faith on a love I knew to have a lease,
It was foolish to think I could feel this way and not get cut too deep,
You showed through actions how you felt, cause you knew that talk is cheap,
When you peered into my soul you were blinded by the light,
But also glimpsed that a devil resides in a heart as black as night,
Only God knows why you loved me, I am such a damaged soul,
But you saw past my transgressions and loved me for my whole,
Your company was my garden, and your love, the soil where I could grow,
Such a shame that I didn't know how much I loved you, until I let you go,
Things happen the way they're supposed to, and always the way we need,
And if intentions manifests our destiny it's all in which wolf you feed,
Now we're standing here at the fork in the road, 2 souls that merged as one,
And it just seems like such a sin to end this love before it has even begun...


-Ryan Mita 3/11/16

"The Greatest Gift I Have Ever Known"

Tell me your greatest fear, so I may come to know the texture of your soul,

Only through your vulnerability can I appreciate its glow,

It's as if we had known each other through many lifetimes long ago,

A recognition of a sudden recollection of the soul, 

A union that so effortlessly transcended space and time,

With one who possessed a bright and iridescent shine, 

I only wish that I hadn't been so selfish with our time, 

Cause I only saw your surface, not the story that lay behind, 

Now I am haunted by this romance with a memory of a feeling,

As if my heart has trapped my mind, confined just like a ceiling,

But it's my mind that needs to learn to heal, for my heart has never failed,

And I just know when I reach my end that it's your heart that I held,

So you may be absent from my life, but somehow I never feel alone,

This quiet strength born of weakness, the greatest gift I've ever known...

-Ryan Mita

  10/24/16